Forgiveness.
Tonight we started a bible study at my church for military wives and the wonderful, sweet, and kind lady that is leading us through this study said that her and her husband prayed about a word to describe their deployment. Something that they felt that God wanted them to focus on. I think my word is 'forgiveness' as it's something I have a very hard time doing for others and myself.
A lot of times, I harp on myself for past mistakes. Things that I made very poor choices in. I also find a very hard time to let people back in after they've wounded me in a certain way or forgiveness for them being human. Forgiveness is not something that comes easily for me. Even the smallest things, sometimes I cannot overlook them. I know this is a true fault of mine; a real weakness to my character.
For a very, very long time I have let my walk with God take a backseat to my life that I'm living. Since opening myself back up to a relationship with Him, I have found that things are starting to fall back into place. Things make sense again and instead of feeling overwhelmed when the world comes crumbling down, I look inward and I rely on my relationship with Him to pull me through what it is that is overwhelming me. It's sad to say that it truly took my world crashing down on me to realize that, as it should not take that to make right with God and your path that you're walking with Him in your life.
I'm rambling. I just needed to get these words out of my head.
Also, I'm not sure I'm back-back, something that I know my mom would love, but maybe I am.
